It was 2002, I had returned to university after a hiatus because of health problems, was sitting again in a classroom at the most important university in my city; most of my classmates were chattering excitedly about what had happened in the last party, some were concerned because they had been told the subject that was going to begin was quite difficult, while I was gazing at the blackboard with an expectant look on my face, wondering how the classes would be and totally eager to start promptly. The professor entered and soon introduced us to the benefits of mastering the course he was going to lecture–this fact was not new to me–and then pointed out the necessity of using a computer if we wanted to succeed not only in his class but after leaving college.
Now
I was convinced that I needed a computer right away, not when having
a job; the problem was I could not afford it. Fortunately, my aunt
Julia helped me once more (she was always willing to when necessity
arose): she bought it for me. I will always be grateful for that. She
told me to choose a machine that both best suited my needs and was
not too expensive. Customized compatible personal computers were
mostly sold in those days in Peru; the one which eventually started
to be mine was no exception. A Pentium IV machine with 256 MB RAM
became my most faithful companion for several years.
It
came with two versions of a proprietary operating system: the last
and the most used one. I was so excited that I began to use it as
soon as it was put on my desk. Although I had already used computers,
none of those opportunities compared to the sense of having one of
mine and what was best is it was a state-of-the-art machine for that
time (at least in my country), and I was told I could expand the
memory to 512 RAM whenever I wanted. I was totally glad and beaming
all the time, since I woke up till I went to bed, always thinking of
her (yes, I began to treat it as a woman) everyday and wherever I
was, expecting to see her soon if I was not at home, contemplating
her as a boy in love for the first time stares at the most beautiful
girl who happens to be his first love.
At
university I discovered I could program the machine so I studied
almost everyday and soon was pleased with the things she was able to
do as long as I wrote the right instructions. No sooner had I written
programs for performing engineering calculations than I got
interested in the C and C++ programming languages and realized they
were totally compatible with my way of thinking and were appropriate
for a better communication with my computer. It would have been much
better if I had learned her native language–that
is, her machine language–or
at least her assembly language but I did not have enough time so I
stuck to the C/C++ family since it gave me more flexibility than a
proper high-level programming language to make my machine carry out
the tasks I wanted her to do, especially the direct access to the
proprietary operating system API.
I
remember perfectly the great happiness I felt when the program I had
been debugging at last run properly and, as a result, I skipped
around my house like a child when given a new toy. I also remember
many times I would long to have a Unix-like machine and, having tried
a Live-CD of a GNU/Linux distribution, I decided I had to have it
installed on my computer. Shortly afterwards, I formatted my machine
and installed both systems, the proprietary and the free one. This
was an exciting new adventure my beloved desktop computer offered me,
which I was utterly eager to embark on, and thenceforth I have been
programming in these two environments.
As
in all love relationships when one of the partners suddenly becomes
ill, I got very worried when one day she began to make a long-pitched
sound and did not start-up correctly. I was terrified that she would
stop functioning forever. This very thought made my skin crawl and
then I acknowledged that she may one day, sooner or later, undergo
that fate. After a short period of normal operation since a
technician had cleaned her, a memory management unit had to be replaced when
the same problem occurred again; I thought this fact would solve it
once and for all, but, unfortunately, one day this year I found out
she had died after several attempts to turn her on.
Last
year I bought my first laptop computer, which has become my only
machine since the decease of my beautiful, unique, hard-working,
faithful, desktop computer. Although it has features my old machine
did not, it is completely different working with it and I miss the
use of floppy disks, the boot loader screen, the capability of
running full-screen DOS programs, the keyboard, and the old-fashioned
mouse that were some of her more attractive characteristics.
I
still have my old computer, lying on my desktop, where she was first
laid, where she was always helping me each time I required her fast
calculation capabilities, accompanying me all the nights I passed
sitting in front of her programming an important piece of software. I
strongly oppose getting rid of her despite my relatives suggest that
I do it, and I will always stand on my decision. Perhaps I will
dismantle her and keep her parts in a safe place as a way of
preserving her for the future, for me to re-assemble her someday and
be able to make her live again. This is the least I can do for the
computer that has been my first technological love.
A
set of memories of an intense human-machine relationship will always
dwell in my mind and the warm and heart-breaking emotion that is
provoked every time I see a desktop computer in a store will continue
assaulting my heart, though the great satisfaction of having learned
a lot with the help of my old computer wipes the tears as they are
running down my face, assuring me that the knowledge thus acquired is
a fitting tribute I pay to her.
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